Friday, April 6, 2012

Holy Now


Holy:  Dedicated or consecrated to God or religious purpose

The Holy Land:  A region on the eastern shore of the Mediteranean Sea, in what is now Israel and Palestine

Holy Week: The week leading up to and including Easter, starting with Palm Sunday

It is the name often used when talking about the area that I call home this year.  “The Holy Land.” Every year millions of pilgrims here from all over the world to visit the holy sites.  They visit the churches that commemorate the Bible stories that many of us grew up hearing.  They visit the place where Jesus was born, where Jesus grew up, where Jesus performed his miracles, where Jesus was crucified and where Jesus rose again.  After their time here, many walk away feeling recharged, closer to God and having encountered a new sense of holy.

Yet, after 7 months of living in the so-called “Holy Land,”  I still have yet to feel connected to the holy in the ways that many of these pilgrims seem to connect after only a few days.  I have visited many of the same holy sites, and run past some of them on a daily basis, but I have also seen the things that most of the pilgrims never see. Many of these pilgrims will come in on tour buses, visit the sites and return to their hotels without encountering the people who call this place home or hearing their stories.  On their tour bus, they are allowed to pass through checkpoints as if they were nothing more than a toll booth, not even aware that they are now in Palestine, remaining blissfully unaware of the occupation. 

Seven months of living with, and hearing the stories of,  the daily realities of the occupation, of being surrounded by a “security wall”, going through checkpoints and witnessing the daily effects of prejudice and hatred, have left me wondering where the holy exists in the pain and brokenness of this land. 
As I joined several thousand of these pilgrims on Sunday for the Palm Sunday procession into Jerusalem to mark the beginning of Holy Week, I found myself wondering about what it is that makes things “holy.” 

I have spent a fair amount of time this year struggling with this. Is this the only holy land on the planet? What is it that makes this land more holy than the cornfields I grew up in? Is this the only holy week during the year?  What makes this week before Easter any more holy than the other 51 weeks of the year? 

Then on Sunday my cousin posted this song by Peter Mayer titled Holy Now
 

As I listened to the lyrics, I was reminded that “holy” is not containable.  It is not something that is only present in the sites deemed “holy” by religious traditions, or in weeks that have religious significance.   If we take the time to look, we will notice that we are surrounded by Holy. 

Even though I don’t  encounter with the holy that most pilgrims do when they visit the Holy Sites, through my encounters with the pain and the brokenness, I get to encounter the holy in this land that most pilgrims never will.  I meet the holy in the Christians who are “living stones,” the keepers of a rich history and traditions for who the holy sites are more than markers of history but are their current places of worship. I encounter the holy when I here the stories of families who remain here and remain hopeful despite the challenges they have encountered.  I see the continuing work of the holy as part of the  “original” Christian community that has been around since Christ. I get a glimpse of the holy each day in the faces of my Kindergarten students.  I am surrounded by the holy each time I am remind of the family I have become a part of here.    I feel the holy as I bask in the sunshine and beautiful flowers of the spring.  In the words of Carrie Newcomer in her song I Believe, “All I know is I can’t help but see all of this as so very holy”

During this Holy Week, may we each be reminded that we are surrounded by the holy, every day of every week in every land, if we open our eyes to it we may just find ourselves overwhelmed by it. 

Saturday, March 31, 2012

My Favorite Things

When the dog bites
When the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don't feel so bad
~Sound of Music

Here is the deal. I love Sound of Music.  It is probably one of my favorite movies of all times.  It the movie I watch when I am bored, need some cheering up or just need some general background noise.  One of the things I love about the movie is the music and one of my favorite songs is “Favorite Things.”

Now, so far there have been no dog bites or bee stings, but there have definitely been some challenging moments of being a YAGM.  I have shared some of those challenges, and some of them I am still working on processing.  Sometimes it all seems incredibly overwhelming.

As cliché as it may seem, in those moments, sometimes it really does help to take some time to reflect on the things that I love about being here.   While Maria’s favorite things maybe raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens, are a good place to start, there are a lot more things that I love about being a YAGM, specifically a YAGM in Jerusalem and the West Bank.

Here are a few of my favorite things:

Seeing rainbows every time it rains    


Sitting on these stairs in the sun with my Nook and reading
Watching shepherd’s herd sheep on the streets of town

The things that I have gotten to do and see this year that I never ever dreamed I would do-
like snorkeling in the Red Sea
The adorable kindergartners who I get to hang out with everyday
Three words: Exploding birthday candles
The amazing food and learning how to cook some of it with cooking lessons from our host mom  

The joy and laughter that fill the teacher’s lounger every morning and through out the day. 
Getting to celebrate Christmas in the place where Christmas started


Saying that I live halfway between “Away in the Manager”...    
...and “Shepherd’s quaking at the sight”

Getting to call a place home that most people will only visit for a day or two. 

Having created a family here and
having several people who have adopted me as a sister or daughter.
 
    




Walking passed this donkey grazing in the field every day on my way home from school    

Being a part of a community that includes both
YAGM alums and current YAGMs and soon will include the new YAGMs

Sights that despite continuing to amaze me,
are a “normal” part of my “normal” life here
    
Having an olive tree, lemon tree...
...almond tree in my backyard.
(by the way did you know that almonds are green and fuzzy…)
    

In the rocky and hard places there is a beautiful growth    

Thursday, March 8, 2012

All I can say is "Thank you"

At the core of who we are is the roots of those that have influenced our lives 
the most and the impact of what they have exposed us to is always there
 and when the foundation is laid with love and commitment, 
our lives at some point will reflect that of which we have been taught.

~Aja Graydon


This quote, one of the many from my “quote box” that was a gift from a dear friend, got me thinking a lot about the people in my life who have helped lay the foundation of who I am. This year has been a year full of reflecting on what my live reflects, and whose influence you can see in my life.

Today is International Women’s Day, which in Palestine warrants a day off of school, which got my thinking about all of the amazing women who have given me the gift of their time, wisdom, mentorship and friendship.   So while there have been many amazing men in my life, I want to take the time to acknowledge some of the many women who have influenced my life and laid the foundation of who I am with love in commitment. I am grateful for each of these women, for their presence in my life, whether they where there for a couple of weeks or several years, whether we are still in close contact or have drifted a part.  I know that I am who I am today because I was blessed with their presence in my life. 


So I leave you with the words of StoryPeople, because as so often true, they have said so perfectly the words I am struggling to find:

Don't you hear it? she asked 
& I shook my head no & then she started to dance & 
suddenly there was music everywhere & it went on for a very long time & 
when I finally found words 
all I could say was thank you.














Sunday, March 4, 2012

Weekend Adventures


It is probably the most terrified I have been since being here.  As I watched the group of young men coming down the street towards me, all I could think to do was run, hoping I wouldn’t become there next target.   After all, they greatly outnumbered me. Plus, they were better armed, with more ammunition surrounding us just waiting to be gathered up.  I had already been hit several times, and camera in hand I was in no position to properly defend myself, so I turned and ran.

Some how I had found myself in the midst of the first snowball fight that the area had seen in a number of years.   (Oh, did you think I was in actual danger? Sorry about that, totally safe here!)
The snowball army!
Let me backtrack a bit here.  Wednesday night school was cancelled for Thursday because all the rain was flooding streets and making it challenging/unsafe to get places. So we all were pretty excited to have a snow, I mean rain, day.   We (Megan, LW and myself) woke up on Thursday morning to discover that because of all of the rain, the wells beneath our house were overflowing into LW’s bedroom.  So that got cleaned up but it was still raining and flooding into LW’s room and all we could do was try to manage it.  A couple of hours later, we lost electricity and with that we made the decision to go to our coordinators house and stay for the night. 

When we got up on Friday, we discovered that during the night the temperature had dropped and the rain from the previous night had turned into snow.  Now, not only was snow falling from the sky, but it was also sticking to the ground, blanketing everything in white. 
Looking out the kitchen window,
to see the first snow here in at least 4 years
It was pretty exciting for
everybody. 
Unfortunately, the snow that made everything so pretty was also making it near impossible for cars to get up the hill outside the house.  In traditional Palestinian fashion, rather than getting frustrated or angry, they people in the car made the best of the situation.  They parked their cars, the occupants got out, somebody turned on some music, and chaos broke out in the field next to the house as everybody began to pelt each other with snowballs.  Soon the neighborhood kids were outside.  Not wanting to miss out on any of the excitement, Megan, LW and I donned our shoes and jackets (mind you we had not come prepared for snow) and headed out to join in the fun.

Cars parked, snow balls flying
Growing up in Iowa, snow and snowball fights were a part of my childhood, but I must say, this was one of the most epic snowball fights I have ever participated in.  There was also the least amount of snowball etiquette, your face was fair game, but I suppose that is what happens when you don’t have snow often.   Laughter and dancing filled the air, and despite the fact that I was soaking wet and could not feel my fingers, I was having the time of my life.
Everybody was fair game. In all fairness she
she got them back pretty good.
At one point, we looked down the street to see the above “army” of young men coming towards us, stopping to throw snow at anybody who looked like a good target, or made the mistake of launching a snowball in their direction. 

Soon everybody was cold and tired, so the crowd dispersed back to their homes and cars.  It was a fantastic morning, and in some ways helped ease the pain of thinking that the next day we would be returning to a flooded home.  Yet, we returned home on Saturday afternoon to discover that our host mom and brother had been amazing and pumped the water out of the house and cleaned up our floor.  

Over the course of the weekend we heard from a variety of people how rare this is, not only the snow but also the amount of rain that we have had this year.  As frustrating as the rain can be, it is a huge blessing.  It a blessing that means full wells and water tanks, well watered fields which will hopefully mean good crops and harvest as well as well fed animals.  Plus this weekend, it also meant the great blessing of play and fun for those of us lucky enough to have snow!

ATTACK!!!!!


Thursday, March 1, 2012

Story Worthy Week



I like to write about the stuff going on in my life as long as it's interesting, but otherwise, I'd rather just read.
~StoryPeople

It’s true.  I do like to write and sometimes I like to share what I write on my blog.  Writing is a great way for me to reflect on my experiences and many times to gain a better understanding of the things I am witnessing.  As I was talking to one of my dear friends who is now teaching English in Indonesia and also attempting to keep a blog, she said that the one thing she like about keeping a blog was that it was “like a public, well-edited journal.”  It provides a way for me to chronicle what is happening in my life so I can go back and remember it later. Because my blog is public, it has the added benefit of allowing me to also share these experiences and reflections.

Yet, all of this only seems relevant when my life is “exciting” and “interesting.”  While I am spending the year living in a foreign country,  life has become “normal” here.  I go to work, I buy groceries, I do my laundry.  It is all the same stuff I did while I was living in the States, except now I am doing it in Palestine and sometimes in Arabic rather than English.   When life no longer seems “interesting,”  I would rather just read about the interesting things happening in other people’s lives. 

While I was living in New Jersey one of my roommates introduced me to “The MOTH” podcasts.   Each week, they release a podcast of one of the participants from one of “The MOTH” story slams, telling a story from the life based on the events theme. At the end of each podcast the host closes with the same tagline:

“Thanks to all of you for listening, and we hope you have a story-worthy week”

And every week, I listen and I think “I hope something exciting happens this week so I can have a story-worthy week.”  Then one week as I was listening to the podcast, I realized that these stories are sometimes about exciting and grand adventures, but usually they are people telling stories about their every day lives from raising children to taking an art class to falling in love to failing relationships.  These people are generally average people who simply believe that they have a story worth sharing and then get up and share it.

As I thought about this, I realized that each week is a story worthy week, in fact if I am willing to keep my eyes open and look for the story each day is a story worthy day.   Whether the story be about some exciting adventure or about something cute one of my kids did or overcoming a particular challenge.  

May you each have a story-worthy week and may you have somebody or someway to share that story, because it is worth sharing.  

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Truths Undiscovered


Well, this is it — the exact right moment. This is the day to throw off the shackles and walk free! It won’t be our fault if you don’t take this chance — we’re doing everything in our power not to get in anyone’s way. There’s no point in nit-picking over the details of our work. We have endeavored to be faithful servants of God and we’re confident that we’ve got the runs on the board. It’s not as though we’ve had it easy either. We have hung in there through hard times, tough times and horrendous disasters. We’ve been bashed, lynched and locked up. We’ve worked ourselves into the ground when things needed to be done, sometimes even going without sleep and food. And through all this we have maintained our integrity — our intentions have been pure and our heads have been clear. We have managed to hold on to our patience, generosity, and holiness of spirit. Our love has been genuine, our speech truthful, and God has continued to work powerfully through us. We have armed ourselves with nothing but an iron commitment to doing what’s right, and we’ve grasped the work of justice with both hands. Sometimes we’ve been honored and sometimes slandered. We have been true to our word and yet denounced as charlatans. We’ve been treated as nobodies even though everyone knows who we are. We’ve been written off as dead, but here we are, brimming with life. We’ve been flogged to within an inch of our lives but never quite killed. We’ve almost drowned in tears and yet we are still bubbling with joy. They say we are poor, and yet many are enriched by us. They say we have nothing to offer, and yet everything is ours to share.
~2 Corinthians 6:1-10 (Laughingbird.net)

Four years of classes, conversations and chapels at an ELCA Liberal Arts college taught me a lot about the importance of looking at the context of a scripture passage when attempting to gain an understanding of the message it offers.  Throughout my four years at Luther, I was blessed to have the guidance of very wise and knowledgeable professors (both those with whom I had classes and those I never had an actually class but heard preach several times) and pastors (both within Luther College Campus Ministries and in a variety of other settings).  These faith mentors where constantly offering insight into the context of a certain passage, and then encouraging us to explore how these passages continue to speak to us in our current context.  

While this was always challenging, and sometimes frustrating, all of it was preparing me to leave the “Luther bubble” and apply my faith and understanding of scripture in a broken world.   This preparation has been incredibly helpful this year, as I read and hear scripture with new eyes and ears. 

On Sunday mornings, I often find myself listening to the pastor read the readings for the day in Arabic and following along in my beat-up English NRSV.  As I reflect words during the sermon, I often find myself wondering about what the words say to the people I am worshipping with.   There are Sunday mornings when I feel the weight the scripture dropped on me like a ton of bricks, and Sunday mornings when I feel that weight lifted and replaced with hope.

This was no less true this morning as our pastor told us the scripture he would be preaching on would be 2 Corinthians 6:1-10.  As I read the words, I sat in awe of the fact that Paul’s second letter to the community at Corinth, written to a specific people at a specific time in a specific context could hold so much relevance to a completely different people at a completely different in a completely different context. 

From what I can gather, Paul was writing to the community of Corinth at a time when his relationship with them had been deteriorating.  He seems to be addressing a couple of different problems, but none of these are directly identified in the letter, meaning that the readers are most likely aware of the issues Paul is addressing.  

Almost 2,000 years later, we no longer know what these issues were, but there is still meaning and truth in Paul’s words, and the truth that I heard this morning is incredibly impacted by the time I have spent getting to know the stories of the people of Palestine. I read the NRSV translation in church and upon returning home, looked at a couple of different translations, each time seeing more and more of the story of the people of Palestine in this passage.

The talk of now being “the day to throw off the shackles and walk free,” of hanging “in there through hard times, tough times and horrendous disasters,” and of being “bashed, lynched and locked up.”  Yet throughout the challenges “maintaining integrity” and managing “hold on to patience, generosity, and holiness of spirit” while their “love has been genuine, our speech truthful, and God has continued to work powerfully through us.” If I didn’t know that this was a reading from 2 Corinthians, I would easily believe that these words were part of a sermon or message delivered by one of the many Palestinian Christians who I now count among faith mentors. 

While I could relate to the entire passage, it was the power of the last two verses that spoke loudest to me, (switching to NRSV, as that is how I originally read it)

We are treated as impostors, and yet are true…

Throughout the primaries that are going on back home, we have heard a lot about the latest things candidates are saying about Israel/Palestine (again, notice how context impacts what is important and what is paid attention to). Often statements are made minimizing   Several weeks ago, one candidate was bold enough to claim that the Palestinian people are an invented people.  But unless I have recently found myself in a land full of incredibly realistic invisible friends, I can tell you that Palestinian people are a real people, with real stories and real traditions

…as unknown, and yet are well known…

It is a common believe that there are no, or at least very few, Christians in Palestine, or in the Middle East in general.  While the Christian population may be a minority in number, it is not a minority in presence.  You may not know their specific stories or even their names, but the story of the Palestinian Christians, and the Palestinian people in general,  is well known story.  It is the story of all of humanity, of trying to live their lives, in the hopes of creating a better future for the world.

…as dying, and see­- we are alive, as punished, and yet not killed…

It is all too common for Palestinians to be able to share stories of the time they, or a loved spent in jail.  Palestinians can be arrested and held on administrative detention, without being charged or sentenced for 3 months at a time; however, due to a loophole in the law that 3-month administrative detention can be renewed indefinitely. This means that many people live in constant fear of being arrested. If somebody is arrested, it means they live in constant wonder of when they will see their loved ones again.  For statistics on administrative detention, detention ofminors and the number of Palestinians in Israeli Custody.

…as sorrowful, yet always rejoicing…

When people gather here, there always seems to be much rejoicing. Whether the gathering be a celebratory event or simply every morning in the teachers lounge, the joy and energy, while sometime overwhelming, is contagious.  Big celebrations are often accompanied with much food and dancing as the community comes together to rejoice with their friend. 

…as poor, yet making many rich…

Like the much of the rest of the world, Palestine has not escaped unscathed from the recent economic downturn plus here there is the added economic stress that comes from being an occupied country Yet in the 6 months I have called this place home, I have learned about the incredible riches that cannot be purchased with money: the riches of traditional knowledge, of time, of friendship of welcoming people into your house.   I know that as time passes I will learn to appreciate the gift of these riches more and more, but for now I stand in awe of all that people here are willing to offer to complete strangers and 
the ease at which I was welcomed into a community here. 

…as having nothing, and yet possessing everything.

This is the land of hospitality and some of the most generous and welcoming people I have met.  My family is coming in a few short weeks (insert happy dance here), and I am finding myself struggling to schedule their time, not because there is so much to see and do (which there is) but because when people find out they are coming, invitations to homes for dinner are immediately extended.  While the number of physical possessions may be smaller in number, the courage, patience and love for others which people here possess is everything.


I know that this change in the way I hear and read scripture will be a continuous journey. For that reason, I am incredibly grateful for the way that my faith mentors at Luther prepared me to wrestle with the message that scripture can have.  In doing so, they demonstrated the importance of being open to having that message be influenced by not only the context in which the words were written but also the context in which the words are being read.  

I leave you with the words of a Bishop Butler (don’t ask me which one, apparently there where several):
It is not at all incredible,
that a book which has been so long in the possession of mankind
should contain many truths as yet undiscovered.

Friday, February 17, 2012

Let God Be With You


I have a picture I carry in my Bible.  For four years, it got taped in my planner at the beginning of each school year and now it gets carried around in my Bible.  For six years, I have carried this picture around with me and time has taken its toil on this picture.  It is tattered and ragged but I continue to carry it with me because of the reminder that it holds.

Taken with a disposable camera and really blurry, at first the picture may not look like much.  I took the picture my freshmen year of college during a spring break trip with Habitat for Humanity to Ocean Springs, Mississippi.  During the trip we stayed at CampVictor, which housed a variety of volunteers and coordinated relief work for these volunteers to do.  In the dining hall, there were several banners with words of encouragement that had been sent shortly after Hurricane Katrina.  One of the banners was covered in messages written mostly in the hand-writing of small children with the messages generally being something to the effect of “May God be with you."   However, one message on the board stood out to me.  Rather than writing "May God be with you", one child had written "Let God be with you":


At the time I took a picture because what I thought was a child’s misprint struck me as cute; however, as time has passed that “misprint” has come to hold a much deeper meaning.  And whether or not it was a “misprint” or not, I think there is incredible wisdom in the child’s words.

During my summers working at Camp EWALU, we would start every worship service with an invocation.  Before doing our invocation, we asked the campers to tell us what an invocation was and the standard response was “the time when we invite God into our worship.”  We would then go on to talk a bit about the fact that even though God is always with us we need to take the time to be intentional about welcoming God into our lives and recognizing God’s presence in our every day moment.
There are moments when I struggle to remember these lessons.  When I am faced with a 403 mile long, 25 foot high “security fence.”  When I am faced with one of the approximately 144 checkpoints that are generally guarded by soldiers younger than me.   When I hear about the 10 Palestinian children killed in a bus accident and read comments of celebration bysome Israelis.  In these moments it is hard to remember to look for God.

However, the picture in my bible serves as my reminder of my need to do my own invocations in my daily life.  God may not always be obvious, but if I am willing to invite God and “let God be with me,” I remember that God is actually around me all the time.  

While I may have to be a bit more intentional about looking, I remember that I can see God in so many different aspects of my everyday life here.  I can see God in:


In the people who come to visit and are willing to listen to a different narrative and the people who have the courage tell their stories and the sharing of these stories across generations.
In 50 volunteers who are willing to travel to Palestine, not only to visit the sites but also to make a positive change by spending a week planting olive trees through a program with Alternative Tourism Group


In the genuine joy and love of children and their ability to look past differences and see people as people

 In the joys of friendship and the ways in which new friendships form and old friendships grow despite change and distance. 




In the beautiful and incredible women that I now get to call friends and family and the ways that we have grown through the joys and challenges of being YAGM's
In the incredible number of rainbows I have seen during this rainy season and the promise of God's love that they hold



In the incredible natural beauty that I am surround by and the incredible place that I get to call home this year.